Holy Crap!! What Did I Just Do??

I have written before about this gay event that happens about once a month.   The last time I was resolved to go to one of these things, I chickened out.   I found out this yesterday there is another of them tomorrow (Thursday).  I was thinking about going but I was not sure, since my last experience did not go very well.  But I also know that I have do put myself out there, since I am not going to meet very many people in my kitchen.


I was talking to T on Tuesday and I reminded him that last time he said he would go with me to the next one of these events.  He agreed.  I was so excited not to have to go by myself.


My boss is gay.  He recently traveled to Massachusetts and got married to his partner of 25 years. He knows I am gay.  There is a woman I work with who also knows I am gay.  She is a lesbian who has been with her partner for 16 years.  While a lot of people at work know I am getting divorced, no one outside of these two, know that I am gay.  This includes a bunch of others that I know to be gay, who will probably be at this event.


So anyway, I told my boss and the lesbian that T was going to come to this event with me.  They have not met him, but I have talked about to him a lot.  I thought it would be cool for them to meet him.


Just to today.  I was thinking about this event tomorrow.  I was happy that T will meet me.  I will meet him and then we will go to the pub together.  Then it hit me.


After this event, I will be out at work.  

There are several people I work with who go to these events.  Some are gay and some are not.  If I go alone, people may assume that I am just there to hang out with fun people.  If I show up there with a man, that will send another message. (And by T's description, being there with an Asian guy, will telegraph to everyone that I am queer as a 3 dollar bill.


I am not really worried about something bad happening.  Anyone who would see me there would be gay friendly.  The company I work for is basically gay friendly too, so there is not really any risk there.  But I did not even think when I made the plan, that I would be taking the step of effectively coming out at work.