When I started this blog back in 2009, I did it because I was in conflict and I wrote about it. I often wrote about the same thing more than once, but each time approaching it from a slightly different angle until I had sorted things out in my head.
Then after K and I divorced, I started to have more clarity and less conflict. After T and I broke up, I started spending more time with the kids and that was a distraction for a while. I had an on again / off again relationship with the Chef which caused a bunch of conflict. I didn't have much of a urge to write about that. Probably because in my mind I knew it was never going to amount to anything I the long run anyway.
So even though there has been a bunch of stuff going on, there has not been a lot of movement, so there is not much to write about. Or at least not much I felt motivated to write about.
That is until recently. Some things have come up that are causing some changes in my life. I am not 100% sure they are good changes, but they are changes nonetheless. They are causing me to have more and more conflict and I am feeling the need to write about it. I don't know how long this new conflict will last before a reach a level of clarity where I stop writing again. I have a feeling that there will be more.
I am noticing behavioral changes in myself. Maybe that's good, maybe it's not. I'm going to have to "talk" it out. Since I really don't have anyone to talk to, I will write about it here.
If anyone still reads this, you are welcome to some along if you like.
