I got home from my trip Tuesday, but I will not be seeing T any time soon. Yes, he is totally swamped at work. He thought he had hired some help, but he had to fire the guy after 4 days because he was not a knowledgeable in real life as he was in the interview. He worked late tonight, (well past 8:30pm) so I didn't think I could get to him tonight, but I was hoping for tomorrow. He has to have a root canal tomorrow and I know he won't be in the mood to do much after that. I wanted to come and just be with him. I know he will have to work while I am there, but just being there with him is nice. But that is not going to happen. He has company visiting. He told me who, but I can't remember. It is a relative or family from Vietnam, but since this person does not know T is gay, I am not welcome at his house while his company is there. For me to come would cause stress for his mother. Despite increasing the loneliness and hurt I will feel, it is more important to him that he not upset his mother's apple cart. If he has to disappoint one of us, I am always the one that gets thrown under the bus (I know this sounds shitty, but I am really hurt tonight and I feel really shitty.) His sister is having a birthday part on Saturday. I am not sure if I am still invited to that or not. If I am and I do go, I don't know who I will be. Maybe her friend? Certainly not the target of one man's love. Even if I am invited, I am not sure that I will go. I will get to see him next Wednesday. He has promised to come to my house and stay the night. Of course I am delighted he is coming, but it's 7 days away. I did not see him before I left for my trip because I was so sick, and then I was gone for 11 days. Now I have to wait another 7 days to hold the man I love. That's almost a month since I have been held by the man I love. I am lonely. I am sad. I am heartbroken.
I am gay man in his 40's who was married for 18 years to a straight woman, who is still my very best friend. We have 4 children together. She is now remarried and we still want to be supportive of each other and make a stable family for our kids.
Cast of Characters
Jim: That's me
K: The wonderful woman I married in 1993. We divorced in November 2011, and she is still my best friend.
T: My ex-boyfriend. We were together from 2008 to 2013. He is still an important person in my life.
AJ: K's new husband. They got married December 2011.
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