Wednesday, July 21, 2010

It's Easy To Forget, There Is More To Do.

Sometimes I forget.

I forget that my life is not a together as I like to think.  It's not as horrible as it used to be, but there are still things to do.

I got a reminder last night.  K was talking about health insurance.  Once we are divorced she will not longer be able to be covered under my insurance from work so she in planning for her own coverage.  The church where she works does not provide health insurance, but they will give her money to help her buy her own. 

I guess it was only a matter of time and I am not sure why it effected me the way it did.  I mean really, I am deeply in love with T and he is openly (sort of) my boyfriend. She has a boyfriend that she is deeply in like with, but for some reason I did not think I would have to deal with a divorce.  Stupid, huh?

I really do not have stress K and I separating, but for some reason there in tension in my head about completing the paperwork.  I guess that makes is all final and I after that it will remove the last connection that might allow me to retreat back into my straight life.  (Not that I could.  That ship has sailed.)

I guess I need to call a lawyer to get the process started.


On an unrelated note, today is the one year anniversary of my blog.  I don't make a big deal about birthdays and I don't think I will be making a big deal about this one.

I did want to say, however, that writing it has been a real joy.  It has been a huge help to me in helping me to get my thoughts in order or help me get some perspective.  I also know there are some people who have been helped by my story and I that makes be feel good too.  

Thanks for the couple of people who ready my blog and comment.  I really appreciate the feedback  that has been a big help to me as well.


manxxman said...

I remember when my divorce became left me with sort of a "dull" feeling. But it had to be done. Fortunately we found a lawyer that agreed to handle it for both of us (not usually done.....but it saved us a lot of money since we had agreed everything beforehand).

Keep up the blog.....I read it daily.

Bear Me Out said...

Step by step. And new challenges emerge. Take it slowly.

Cubby said...

Happy Anniversary Jim, and congratulation on a year of posts.

Anonymous said...

I've only been reading your blog for about 2 months. I'm not anywhere near you on this path of conflicting clarity so your honesty and vulnerability are helping me get a picture of possibilities or realities ahead. I'm the one on the church staff in our marriage, and so far back in the closet I can't even see the door. Thanks for the time and effort to share. It's more helpful than you know. Bill in SoCA

jim said...

Thanks, Bill. I like the idea that the my journey can help someone else navigate their own journey, just like the blogs of others helped (and still help) me.

Good Luck to you.