Last night I woke in the night. Without my glasses I cannot really see the clock so I am not sure what time it is. The windows are open and I can hear crickets in the woods beyond our yard. The only other sound I hear is your breathing.
I put on my glasses to look at the clock, but I my eyes are drawn to the moonlight cascading on your body. You shift slightly but you remain asleep as I prop myself up on my elbow. Even though I know every curve and contour of your body, I cannot take my eyes off you.
I focus on your chest. Your smooth skin almost seems to glow in the moonlight. I watch it rise and fall as your breathe. It is almost hypnotic. Up. Down. Up. Down.
My eyes move up to your face. I focus on your lips. I can almost feel the softness of them pressing on mine. I notice there is a little stubble growing on your chin, now I can feel it scratching gently on my chin as we kiss in my mind.
I lean over and touch my lips to yours. You return my kiss without waking up, almost instinctively.
I return my glasses to the night stand.
I lay my head back on my pillow.
As I close my eyes and drift back to sleep, I listen to the crickets and your breathing. I dream about the kiss.
I am gay man in his 40's who was married for 18 years to a straight woman, who is still my very best friend. We have 4 children together. She is now remarried and we still want to be supportive of each other and make a stable family for our kids.
Cast of Characters
Jim: That's me
K: The wonderful woman I married in 1993. We divorced in November 2011, and she is still my best friend.
T: My ex-boyfriend. We were together from 2008 to 2013. He is still an important person in my life.
AJ: K's new husband. They got married December 2011.
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