So once more around.
In talking to my therapist (can I call her a shrink?) and she is still pushing me to move out of my home. She pushed me to visualize what it will be like be on my own. I don't think I am quite ready for that, just yet.
I know that we will not remain married as we had planned. I am gay, I do not feel about her like I should, even though I love her very much. But I am too scared to move out on my own.
She (the shrink) is pushing me to actively find and build a circle of gay friends. I think this is a good idea, and even K is supportive of this. There is a problem. I can't ever get out. I have a hard time getting out to see T more than once of twice a month, how the hell am I going to find time to make other friends.
I think there will be a lot more tail chasing before I get moving in the right direction.
I did ask if she knew a gay therapist. She seemed surprised by the question, but she said she would ask around. I have a theory that talking to someone who is more familiar with my struggle, might be helpful.
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