I am going back to see my therapist tomorrow. I need her to help me. Apparently I am the only one I know that has not come to realize that I cannot be a gay man and still be married to K and live a "straight" life.
I need her to help me move my head into to a place where I can accept the changes in my life. I need to focus on being a good dad to my kids, be a good friends to K and be true to me.
I need her to help me accept who I am and all the things that go with it. I think I have a handle on who I am. I am gay and that is not going to change.
I need her to help me accept that I made the mistake of my life when I "chose" to be straight back when I was in my teens. I need to accept that that happened and I married a woman. I cannot change that fact, I can only move on from here. I hear myself say that (or type that) but I cannot seem to bring myself to accept it and forgive myself.
Because I cannot move on, it seems no one else can move on either.
Wednesday Morning Male Beauty - Pt 1
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