K and I had a good talk last night. I reminded her what a good friend she is and how luck I am to have her. She reminded me she was still pissed at me, but she loved me too.
Then this morning she sent me several Craigslist entries for apartments for rent and then one for a large house with an in-law apartment. I suppose she is trying to be helpful. There really are 2 K's. The angry soon-to-be-ex-wife and the best friend. Of course I don't blame her for having an angry side
I am moving, but slowly.
I have heard I am over analyzing my situation. Well of course I am. It's one of those things I do. My shrink mentioned that to me too. We talked about how I have run all the possible scenarios that could possible happen to my in my situation. It is exhausting, but I have to believe when I finally make the leap off the diving board, I will be ready for what ever happens. The reality is that it will probably not be as bad as my worst fears, but I;m still scared.
I think I have told a story about how when I was little I walked out to the end of the diving board and was afraid to take the plunge. Even though I knew I could swim, and I really wanted to jump, there was something inside me that kept me from from jumping. Of course once I did jump I was not only glad I did, but it was not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I guess this is a the same type of thing, except it's not just me, it's K and 4 minor children who will be effected.
Wednesday Morning Male Beauty - Pt 1
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