Early this morning K left fer her cruise. I wish I was going on a cruise, but, oh well. On the one hand I am happy for her. She has been working really hard and deserves the break. On another hand I am sad. It is yet another reminder that I can never go back my old life.
My Blogger friend Cameron (http://ifidotherightthing.blogspot.com) is having a hard time right now because he is realizing that his marriage may be beyond repair. Of course, I have know that about my own for a long time, but sometimes it's easy to forget. After all, while K and I no longer share a bed, we still live together. We do things with the kids as a family. We LIKE each other. So it is easy to sometimes pretend that that I still have a "normal" life.
Another thing is, K and I are sill near constant companions. Because we share the same house we are often here are the same time. We are not always together, she spends a lot of time in her room working on school work, but the fact that there is someone else in the house is comforting. Her leaving on the cruise without me means that I am alone in the house and I don't really like it.
One day the day will come when I will have to move out of the house, or she will. Either way, I will be home alone and I do not think I will like it much. I realize this is something I will have to eventually get used to, but not today.
I am gay man in his 40's who was married for 18 years to a straight woman, who is still my very best friend. We have 4 children together. She is now remarried and we still want to be supportive of each other and make a stable family for our kids.
Cast of Characters
Jim: That's me
K: The wonderful woman I married in 1993. We divorced in November 2011, and she is still my best friend.
T: My ex-boyfriend. We were together from 2008 to 2013. He is still an important person in my life.
AJ: K's new husband. They got married December 2011.
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