Near where I live there is a large lake. It is really large. It is just over 50 square miles. There is a group of gay people that get together once a month at bars or restaurants near the lake. That call these events "Take the Lake" and they are open to the public. There was one tonight.
I know there are lot of gay people who work at my company, who go, including my direct supervisor. So far this year I have not had the opportunity to go. Mostly because of K's schedule and my need to be home with the kids.
Tonight I had it all lined up. K was going to be home and I was free to go. As you might expect I was a little nervous about it. If I show up there I would be all but coming out at work.
I talked about it with T and he encouraged me to go. I was thinking that it would be nice if he would have come with me, but he had work to do and I really did not give him enough notice. Besides it was probably something that I needed to do on my own, at least the first time.
Yesterday and today had something in common at my job. I was in back to back meetings virtually all day, both days. At the end of they day today, I was spent and not feeling particularly social. Originally my plan was to hit the gym right after work and then head to the bar after a shower. But I got out of work just about an hour and a half later than I expected. By this time I was cranky as hell and really did not want to see anyone I work with in a bar. Add drinking to that I can see a scenario where I might say something that might get me fired the next day.
So I didn't go. I did however put my time to good use. I walked 70 min on the treadmill (about 4.3 miles). I think working out helped with some of my stress. I will try again next month.
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