I am not out to everyone in the real world, but I am in a place where I am ready for everyone to know. The people who really matter in my life know who I am. Gone are the days where I had to worry about what they will think if they find out. They know who I am and love me anyway. What a relief.
While I worry how my kids will react, it really is more about the crap they will get from others and the pain involved with the divorce. I think, in the end, the kids will accept me as I am.
I am not living the life I am supposed to, but I am on the way there. I have made a lot of progress over the past year. A lot more since I started this blog. I don't know if it is the act of sitting down to write most every day, those commends and messages I have received or some combination of the two that has propelled me forward.
When I started this I resolved to post about every other day, not so anyone will have something to read, but so I will force myself to organize at least one thought every time. I know that sometimes I write about the same thing, usually from a slightly different perspective, but it's the act of writing it out helps a lot. That fact that there a couple of people who ready what I right is icing on the cake. I'm really glad there are some who follow me and I am grateful for the support they have shown me.