Sometimes, I run hot and cold.
Yesterday I had a pretty good day with the kids, and then a really good evening with T and the kids. While I love my kids, it was having T here that made it really special.
Today, I was again home alone with the kids all day, but there was no visit from T to look forward to. I was on my own today. To make it worse my 2 youngest kids decided it was pajama day today so there was no chance that I was leaving the house today. Not that I really had any where else to go.
It's not that I am feeling bad. I'm really not. It's more that I like consistency and my life does not need seem to have it.
One of those things I have to get used to.