I am going to do it. I am going to go back to school. I am going to learn to be a Physician Assistant. It will take me three and a half years. I will have to spend all my retirement savings, at least the part I get to keep after I split it with K (which is not enough). I am pretty sure I can get unemployment for 2 years if I am in school, but I am not exactly sure how I will live after that.
But I'm going to do it anyway. I have been hearing from K and from T that everything is going to me OK. I am going to believe them, hold my breath and take a leap of faith.
I think that K will be forgiving about the amount of money that I will give her for a while. We found out that once they are married, that K and the kids can be covered by AJ's insurance. (And he does not have to adopt my kids). T has volunteered to co-sign loans if I need him to and has assured me that he won't let me become homeless.
So with all this, how am I feeling?
I am scared shitless. What I am about to do is SOOOOO far outside of my experience that it's hard for me to know where to start.
Today T started guiding me this afternoon. He bought me a book. One to help me study for the GRE.