Monday, September 19, 2011

So Much To Think About

There is so much change going on in my life right now I am feeling overwhelmed.   After getting canned on Thursday, I had a sleepless night.  I was up early  on Friday.  K has clinical on Friday's and needs to be at the hospital so I had to go her house to get my little kids on the bus.  I have been doing that for the past few Fridays, but this time after I watched their bus drive away, I realized that I really did not have anywhere to go. 

I went home, updated my resume and sent out several to some local companies.  I went online and files my claim for unemployment benefits.  (Of course, they said they could not process it without having someone call me back.)  I ran a few errands, not because I really needed to, but because I had to get out of my  empty and lonely house.  It was one thing just to come back to the empty house to sleep, but now that I have no place to go during the day, I am spending longer hours in my empty house.

By the end of the day Friday, K kind of made be realize that I was panicking and it was too soon to panic.  After all I know that I have 9 weeks of severance and I can get unemployment so I will be OK, for a while anyway.  Also I saw a lot more open positions that I thought I would.

Then there is the question about whether I want to go back to work at all, but head back to school.  It was all making my head hurt, so I took the weekend off from worrying about my situation.  

On Saturday I had planned to get up and head to the gym.  I have not been to the gym in months and not I really have no time excuse anymore.   I did not go though, because K called and said the kids wanted me to come for breakfast.  She also mentioned that I had the eggs at my house and she needed them.  Once I get to the house with the kids, it is really hard for me to leave.  I ended up staying there until 3:30 when I left to head to T's house.

For more than a month, I have planned to attend an event where T would be singing.  He has a wonderful and powerful voice and even though I don't understand the words (he sings in Vietnamese) I love to hear it.  I did record his song with my Blackberry, but it did not come out very well so I won't be posting it.  Again we did not have as much alone time as either of us would have liked, but I was just happy to be with him.

Sunday was another day so spend with the kids.  I went to church with K and all the kids.  We had Lunch at K's house before going to my house.  I took the youngest kids to the pool at the local YMCA.  Back to K's for dinner and I put everyone to bed.

I had a really good weekend.  Now it's nearly 2:00am as I am typing this.  In the morning, I have a lot to do and I need to make sure I get up and get at it.


T said...

I am awake, too. I just mistakenly deleted three hours of work...grrr. Did you go to the right place? This guy isn't me!
Anyways, hang in there, Jim.

Buddy Bear said...

You are very lucky to have T and K in your life. They will help you get through this.

Anonymous said...

Wow, I'm so glad that you're feeling better, I was getting worried by that last post.
Hang in there!

TwoLives said...

I've never been a gym rat and I'm not one now even though I am the best shape of my life. Given a choice between the gym and lying around, the gym always loses. Having said that, I really encourage you to get into a regular, DAILY exercise routine. Something that works for you. Within a few weeks, you'll see big benefits. For one thing, it'll give you something productive to do. You might be busy today but there will be days when watching the paint dry counts as excitement. But even more importantly, getting into an exercise routine will greatly improve your self-esteem. You'll feel better, you'll look better, and as your weight drops you'll get even more motivated. You'll set goals and you'll achieve goals. Your confidence will come through when you interview. Basically, an exercise routine is a win-win all the way around.

Because your daily routine has changed, NOW is the perfect time to start. If you can commit to some kind of exercise every single day for the next two weeks, it will become a habit.

I'll glad you're feeling better too.

RB said...

It's only been three days. Give yourself sometime to get over a week.

K invited you to breakfast with the kids? And it wasn't a setup to claim domestic violence and then get a personal protection order? You should feel very fortunate!

Not Alone said...

Hang in their my friend. It gets better.