There is so much change going on in my life right now I am feeling overwhelmed. After getting canned on Thursday, I had a sleepless night. I was up early on Friday. K has clinical on Friday's and needs to be at the hospital so I had to go her house to get my little kids on the bus. I have been doing that for the past few Fridays, but this time after I watched their bus drive away, I realized that I really did not have anywhere to go.
I went home, updated my resume and sent out several to some local companies. I went online and files my claim for unemployment benefits. (Of course, they said they could not process it without having someone call me back.) I ran a few errands, not because I really needed to, but because I had to get out of my empty and lonely house. It was one thing just to come back to the empty house to sleep, but now that I have no place to go during the day, I am spending longer hours in my empty house.
By the end of the day Friday, K kind of made be realize that I was panicking and it was too soon to panic. After all I know that I have 9 weeks of severance and I can get unemployment so I will be OK, for a while anyway. Also I saw a lot more open positions that I thought I would.
Then there is the question about whether I want to go back to work at all, but head back to school. It was all making my head hurt, so I took the weekend off from worrying about my situation.
On Saturday I had planned to get up and head to the gym. I have not been to the gym in months and not I really have no time excuse anymore. I did not go though, because K called and said the kids wanted me to come for breakfast. She also mentioned that I had the eggs at my house and she needed them. Once I get to the house with the kids, it is really hard for me to leave. I ended up staying there until 3:30 when I left to head to T's house.
For more than a month, I have planned to attend an event where T would be singing. He has a wonderful and powerful voice and even though I don't understand the words (he sings in Vietnamese) I love to hear it. I did record his song with my Blackberry, but it did not come out very well so I won't be posting it. Again we did not have as much alone time as either of us would have liked, but I was just happy to be with him.
Sunday was another day so spend with the kids. I went to church with K and all the kids. We had Lunch at K's house before going to my house. I took the youngest kids to the pool at the local YMCA. Back to K's for dinner and I put everyone to bed.
I had a really good weekend. Now it's nearly 2:00am as I am typing this. In the morning, I have a lot to do and I need to make sure I get up and get at it.
I am gay man in his 40's who was married for 18 years to a straight woman, who is still my very best friend. We have 4 children together. She is now remarried and we still want to be supportive of each other and make a stable family for our kids.
Cast of Characters
Jim: That's me
K: The wonderful woman I married in 1993. We divorced in November 2011, and she is still my best friend.
T: My ex-boyfriend. We were together from 2008 to 2013. He is still an important person in my life.
AJ: K's new husband. They got married December 2011.
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