Lately I have been feeling pretty good. I do not have that depressed feeling I have had for a long time, even thought things are in flux a lot more than I would like.
T and I are working through the awkward transition from boyfriends to just friends. He is trying hard to be supportive and is encouraging me to get out an meet people. He thinks I should be more aggressive than I have been and reach out to more people.
K is doing OK with me, but I think she is really wishing that we had the farm she really wants. I think she is ready for me to move out, but she also knows that if I have to spend money on rent, then there will be no more money to save for the house on the farm she wanted. When I offer to resume looking for a place to go, she laments that it's a lot of money to piss away on rent when I will probably spend much of my time at the house here with the kids.
In the meantime, I am am exploring possibilities. I am assessing the things I want in life and the things I can work around.
I had an e-mail exchange with the Pastor of K's church. I told him among other things, that I was worried about the reactions of the church people not towards me, but towards K and the kids because of me. I also told him that I was convinced the God created me the way I am and love me as I am. I was surprised when he confirmed that he also believed that God created gay people, gay. It was refreshing and maybe I have to consider that not a religious people hate gay people.
I meet with him in about 3 weeks and I am actually looking forward to it. I'll keep you posted.
Wednesday Morning Male Beauty - Pt 1
12 minutes ago