Ok, I am not really meeting with God. At least not directly. I am meeting this afternoon with the one of His henchmen. The pastor of the church where K works. He knows our situation and he has been very supportive of K and she thinks he will be supportive of me too.
This started because K wants to become a member of the church and wants to join with the kids. She will do this with or without me, but I think she would prefer to do it with me. I think her thinking is that even though we will not remain married, we will always be a family and this is something we should together, all 6 of us. It is clearly important to her, but she has not been pressuring me.
If I was going to do this I decided that I need to have a sit down with the pastor. I did not like the idea of getting involved in this church community, only to get kicked out when they find out who I really.
It's not that I am flag waving homo, but at some point we will tell the kids. I will move out of the house. K may some to church with another man and I will have a new partner. I am not going to pretend to be someone else any longer. I did not go through all this shit just to pretend at church. How will that play with the church people? I don't know and have to ask.
It's important for another reason. This is K's job. she needs this job and I need to make sure there will be no fall out for her when the rest of the congregation discovers what is happening.
I am meeting him right after work today. I will let you know how it goes. I am nervous, but hopeful.
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