So I am looking, and looking.
What is it I am looking for?
Love, of course.
I had love with T. Why was that not enough? He would have been a partner I could have shared my life with, he just would not have lived with me. "We can still share everything," he would tell me. How? In a daily phone call?
Yes, we could share everything that way. That is when it occurred to me. I don't want to share life with my man. I want to EXPERIENCE life with my man.
This is why K and I are as close as we are. We have experienced 18 years together. That is something you cannot replicate over the phone or in text messages. You have to BE THERE with your partner. You have to be together, physically, not just in your mind or in your heart.
This is important to me and it is something that I will not compromise on. I need it. I can compromise on most anything about how I get to be together with my partner, but I must BE with him. While I love T and I will continue to love him, he has chosen not be my partner. It is time for me to move on. I hope I can keep him as my friend.
In the mean time I am finding meeting people to be depressing, but I am trying to remember that making friends is a good thing and I should do it as often as I can.
Wednesday Morning Male Beauty - Pt 1
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