So I have been in a pretty good mood for the past couple of weeks. I think there have been some significant changes in my thinking.
I still have, and will continue to have, strong feelings for T. I have come to accept that he and I were just not meant to be partners and that is OK. We will remain friends and he taught me some very valuable lessons. I learned what it is like to love a man and have his love in return. I learned what I want out of life. I learned that I need to have more than a boyfriend, I want a real partner. He has shown me real loyalty and was there for me in a very difficult time.
K has been making progress too. While we are still living together with no end in sight, she is becoming more like the best friend I am hoping for and less like the angry ex-wife. She is still lonely and still trying to figure out what she needs to do for herself, but, for now, she is doing better at least where I am concerned.
I have been trolling the online sites for men. I have not had many takers. A few years ago I got lots of attention on one particular site. I wonder if it is because then I just had a close up picture of my man parts and now I have a picture of my face, (G rated). I guess I know what part of me gay men like the best.
I am not looking for hook up, so that may be limiting my responses too.
Keeping a positive attitude.