Wednesday, March 10, 2010

A New Day Dawning

So I have been in a pretty good mood for the past couple of weeks.  I think there have been some significant changes in my thinking.

I still have, and will continue to have, strong feelings for T.  I have come to accept that he and I were just not meant to be partners and that is OK.  We will remain friends and he taught me some very valuable lessons.  I learned what it is like to love a man and have his love in return.  I learned what I want out of life.  I learned that I need to have more than a boyfriend, I want a real partner.  He has shown me real loyalty and was there for me in a very difficult time. 

K has been making progress too.  While we are still living together with no end in sight, she is becoming more like the best friend I am hoping for and less like the angry ex-wife.  She is still lonely and still trying to figure out what she needs to do for herself, but, for now, she is doing better at least where I am concerned.  

I have been trolling the online sites for men.  I have not had many takers.  A few years ago I got lots of attention on one particular site.  I wonder if it is because then I just had a close up picture of my man parts and now I have a picture of my face, (G rated).  I guess I know what part of me gay men like the best.

I am not looking for hook up, so that may be limiting my responses too.


Keeping a positive attitude.

1 comment:

The Lion Queen said...

If it's what you want you have no choice but to keep on looking. It takes a lot of time and patience but it's worth the wait in the end.

Hope you find soon what you're looking for!