Meeting With God

Ok, I am not really meeting with God.  At least not directly.  I am meeting this afternoon with the one of His henchmen.  The pastor of the church where K works.  He knows our situation and he has been very supportive of K and she thinks he will be supportive of me too.


This started because K wants to become a member of the church and wants to join with the kids.  She will do this with or without me, but I think she would prefer to do it with me.  I think her thinking is that even though we will not remain married, we will always be a family and this is something we should together, all 6 of us.  It is clearly important to her, but she has not been pressuring me.


If I was going to do this I decided that I need to have a sit down with the pastor.  I did not like the idea of getting involved in this church community, only to get kicked out when they find out who I really.  


It's not that I am flag waving homo, but at some point we will tell the kids.  I will move out of the house.  K may some to church with another man and I will have a new partner.  I am not going to pretend to be someone else any longer.  I did not go through all this shit just to pretend at church.  How will that play with the church people?  I don't know and have to ask.


It's important for another reason.  This is K's job.  she needs this job and I need to make sure there will be no fall out for her when the rest of the congregation discovers what is happening.


I am meeting him right after work today.  I will let you know how it goes.  I am nervous, but hopeful.