Yesterday afternoon, I took K and the kids out to lunch. While we were all happily munching away, K started talking to me in something like code. It took me a few minutes to figure out what she was talking about.
"AJ's daughter has been doing math and put 1 and 1 together." K told me with all my kids, who do not know I am gay, sitting right there.
"What? Math? I thought she had good grades, why is she in summer school?" I asked absently dipping my fries in ketchup.
"No, dumbass, not that kind of math."
AJ's daughter has told both K and AJ that she is not really comfortable with me living here with K and the kids. She is also not comfortable with the close relationship K and I have. If you think about it, she knows that K and her father are talking about getting married and buying a house together, what is up with the not-quite-ex-husband living at home. Compound that with the fact that K and I get along pretty good, you can see why she might be concerned.
Apparently sometime on the trip to Florida a few weeks ago, she put all her observations together and decided that I am gay. Upon returning home, she told AJ that she is pretty sure I am gay. The way K explained it to be she was not asking him, but told him. AJ confirmed that she is correct.
Now that she knows the truth she feels better about my relationship with K. She also feels more secure about the relationship K and AJ have.
Sound's good, right? You might think so, but now I am on a tighter deadline than I thought to come out to my kids.
I am planning a trip in August with me and the kids. I will be going north to visit my family. K's family as well, but mostly mine. I will all see members of my extended family. My aunts, uncles and cousins. All of whom know I am gay. My mother told them, with my permission.
My mom thinks I need to tell my kids before we go up there because you never know what people will say. It will be better if they hear it first from me and K.
I was thinking that I have a couple more weeks to think about it. But now that AJ's daughter knows about that accelerates my time line. She will not be able to keep her mouth shut and in fairness, she should not have to.
I am scared. The risks are high. I am not sure what to do, but I need to do something. I need to do it fast.
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