K and I and the kids walked through K and AJ's new house. The siding was up. There was insulation in the walls, but there is no drywall. The gas line for her stove was installed and they had replaced the standard tub with the Jacuzzi tub she has always wanted.
She was very happy about that. That is where the happiness ended.
She is upset with AJ and her life. This is typical of her personality, but I find I have a lot less patience for it than I have had in the past.
Yesterday was the birthday of AJ's late wife. He put something on Facebook about it that bothered her. She is not sure that he is truly over his late wife and she does not like feeling second best. I can't say I blame her, but she knew this was the situation when she got involved with him. It's a little like if AJ suddenly decided he has a problem with the relationship K and I still have. It's too late.
She like to plan things. He is not a planner. That bugs her.
Tonight they are going out. He wants to see the new Harry Potter movie. She does not. She did not tell him, but she complained to me.
If I was in her situation, I would be so excited that I would not be able to see straight (no pun intended). I mean, seriously, she spend last night at his house. She does that several times in an average week. If I got to spend a couple of nights a week sleeping next to the man I love, I would be so deliriously happy, that nothing else would matter.
If T and I were building a house together and we were expected to move in together in just over a month, with my kids, I would be... well... I don't even know the words to describe how over the top happy I would be. It would be as if all my dreams were coming true at the same time.
Yet she complains about stupid stuff. Things that are not, just so. Not perfect.
I am facing living in my house alone. Seeing the man I love a couple of times a week. Seeing my kid after work for a while, but I will not be there to tuck them in at night, every night. I have no friends to hang out with.
My prospects are a whole lot bleaker than hers and I am a whole lot happier than she is.
I just can't figure it out.
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