Yesterday I was watching Criss Angle Mindfreak on Netflix with my youngest son. I sent T a test letting him know what I was doing. "Tell him" was his reply. He things I should my son I am gay. "Not now" I tell him.
Later in the evening, I was cutting my middle son's hair. He wanted a buzz cut and I have electric trimmers. "Tell him" was the message I got from T. "Stop" I tell him back. He is starting to stress me out.
I did not mean to make him feel bad, but I know I did. I felt bad about it. I know he was only looking out for me. I know that he wants things to go smoothly. I know he knows that my stress will go away as soon as I tell them. I know he just wants me to feel better about my situation.
I am lucky. I have a man who loves me and looks out for me like he does. I know that he wants things to go well for me and for us.
If I could only get it through my thick head to listen to his advice, I would probably be better off.