I made home after a really good long weekend. It was a lot of fun, but I am really glad I am sleeping in my own bed tonight.
IG and I had a really good time. He took me all over his state. He showed me things I had never seen before. He did things with me that I had never done. On top of that I enjoyed every minute of my visit and our time together.
For a couple of months now I have been talking about how I feel a connection to IG. How we have things on common, but I needed to meet him to see if what I was feeling was real.
So what did learn? I learned that IG is a really good guy. I learned that we had a really good time together. I also learned that the spark or magic or "stuff" that is between 2 people who are in love, was not there. I wanted to feel it. I tried to feel it, but it was not there. On our last night together we talked about and it seems it was not there for him either. He did not feel the magic either.
In the end it was OK. We had a good time together and we know what it will be like for us to be together and now we can maintain a friendship now that we know.
I did have a realization this weekend about the magic, the spark between lovers. It was something that I have felt before. I can remember the exact moment I felt it last.
The last time I was together with T.
I don't know why I did not see it before. Why did not see the love we shared for what it was. The magic spark that I was looking for all long.
I have some more thinking to do about this and I will probably write about it more then.
14 hours ago